Breaking up isn't THAT hard to do....

I am back from an involuntary Internet hiatus imposed on me by the tree trimmers who knocked a limb on our cable line early Tuesday afternoon. Could the timing have been any worse on that? Geez. Here I am with some *ahem* extra time on my hands and NO INTERNET or CABLE! I think the extent of my addiction can be best summed up by the warm fuzzy feeling I felt when I was finally able to log on this morning. Pretty sad when seeing the Facebook.com homepage gives me the same feeling as a bubble bath or a litter of puppies. *hahaha*

I was cleaning my house yesterday afternoon (probably, no, definitely because I had no TV or computer privileges...I guess something good came from the lack thereof) and put on some music to be-bop around to. I chose the fabulous miss Kelly Clarkson because I hadn't listened to her in a while. (She is THE American Idol, I hope you all realize this.) I put my iPOD on random shuffle through all of her cd's and was really enjoying myself. She's got some great songs...and I never realized till then how many BREAK-UP songs she has. I also never realized how fulfilling break-songs can be.

Did you know that "break-up" songs can apply themselves to other areas of life? Say, a career change, for example? I was just dusting away, singing along, then all of the sudden, BAM! It hit me! These lyrics are incredibly fitting!!! I have to share. This first song is called "Low."



Everybody's talkin'
But they don't say a thing
They look at me with "sad eyes"
But I don't want their sympathy

It's cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
But why'd you have to go and make a mess like that?
I just have to say before I let go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
Cause what you did was low

No I don't want your number
There's nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved
My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go

(repeat chorus)

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can't say that
This to show
For all the time I loved you so


I know it was probably written to some jerky boyfriend but WOW. I was belting it out right along side her. (But obviously not as well as she does.) I've always liked the song, but now I GET the song. *haha*

Then a little while later "Breakaway" came on. Again, a song I've always liked but suddenly it has a whole new meaning. I think it's my theme song right now. :)



Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
Now, make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
and breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Far away
And breakaway

(repeat chorus)

Buildings with 100 floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep movin' on, movin' on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

It's so important for me to look at things from this angle. I DID "take a risk, take a chance and make a change." Yes initially it was forced on me *haha*. But eventually I came to that fork in the road where I had to choose what I was going to do. Stepping out from a place I've been for so long is extremely frightening. But it was time.